I was one of the most excited pregnant people you could imagine. Especially after I got past the dreaded three month mark. Many miscarriages had left me wary, okay petrified, and when I felt him move and saw him fully formed on the scan it set the agenda for much excitement. This was the baby that I was going to bring home.
I spent hours choosing a colour scheme for his room – I knew he was a boy and I knew I wanted wallpaper, yes I was obsessed with wallpaper borders! I pored over magazines, catalogues and online shops trying to choose the perfect cot, the most comfortable pram, the sturdiest rocker. The most calming wallpaper borders. You name it I was expert in it. I had visions of bringing home my baby swaddled in soft blankets, I could picture the soft lighting, hear the lullabies that would fill the air and I could see in my mind’s eye the perfect contented baby.
When I wasn’t choosing baby products I was working. Making the most of the final months that I was able to work impossibly long hours . I knew that things would change after he was born and that my return to work would be different, I wouldn’t be able to do the long hours and so I was super organized in putting structures in place to make an easy transition from working fanatic to working mother.
At 24 weeks I was having problems getting into my work clothes. Hell, I was even having trouble getting into my pajamas. It wasn’t my stomach – that wasn’t even that big. But Lord my ankles were huge.
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Wow, what a wonderful post.
Thinking about my watershed moments
1. At 13 years of age walking into the Teenagers ward at the Sydney's Children hospital about to have hip surgery and seeing old teens with Cancers, brain tumors, etc really brought it home that I wasn't that sick
2. Husband getting sick with a long term illness and recovering (over 12 months to recover)
3. Birth of my first child
4. Husband relapsing whilst our daughter was only a few months old
There is probably more, but these definitely stand out for me.
whenever i make a big decison ,the song "I can see clearly now" comes on the radio.