This is exactly where I'm at now. I just found out I'm pregnant, and now I'm in panic mode because I'm 100% not ready, and not sure if I'll ever be. I'm not nurturing at all, terrified of losing all my freedom, and don't know if this whole mothering thing is for me. I'm not the mothering type at all. I did the whole "see what happens" thing because of my biological clock too. Reading this helped, I'm glad I'm not the only one that's felt this way, and there's hope that my feelings will change in the future.