I just don’t think I have been to comedy show where it is dead quiet. Apart from the laughing and clapping on cue there is the lingering laugh, calling out, talking to the person beside, coughing and lots more - so a baby gurgling etc should not stand out
I feel, sad, angry, scared, and so many other thoughts that I cannot even put into words... The thrill and 'high' I get walking through a shopping mall, the anticipation of what I might, could/should not buy - like many other people - has that been ruined forever??? And are these thoughts selfish when people have been killed, or wounded... But in my confused, mixed thoughts I also feel sad for other people who have schizophrenia (if this is indeed what he had) - because not everyone who has schizophrenia is capable of or would consider killing people. For some, it is managed very well, for others who are still coming to terms with their diagnosis, and trialing medications...are they scared this could be them? Argh! So many thoughts, concerns, guilt even, and so many people to pray for who have been affected by this that are not in the media ... Thanks @Mia for putting words around some of our thoughts
@anonymous Oh gosh I didn't realise - only his first day ... tragic, as are all the deaths - thinking of his whanau