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Vinciane Delforge knows she has to stop searching for her son, Theo Hayez, in order to survive.
The 18-year-old hasn't been seen since March 31, 2019, after he left a Byron Bay nightclub at 11pm and made his way towards the beach.
Back home in Belgium, Vinciane has told 60 Minutes in her first public interview, "If you want to go on living, there is a time when you need to stop. There will always be sadness - till the very end of our lives. But it is maybe healthy to stop searching."
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She does think, however, that perhaps she stopped searching too soon after being told by NSW Police that they were calling off the search six weeks after he went missing. They'd told her that they believed her son had fallen off the cliffs at Tallow Beach, and drowned.
"I couldn't believe that he would have been alone, walking on this trail in the bush all by himself. But on the other hand this theory was probably the most acceptable, because it was the least horrible one," she reflected.