It’s 5am and there is someone, or something, in my house.
I can feel it before I can see it.
I’m awake. I’m sure of it. I try to move, to run out of my bedroom, but I’m stuck. It’s as though something is sitting on my chest and I can’t breathe.
There’s a dark figure. Is it an intruder? All I know is that someone bad is trying to hurt me and there is nothing I can do about it.
I’ve never been so terrified and I think for a moment that my heart might just stop beating.
After what feels like a number of minutes, I realise I am dreaming – even though I’m in my bed, with my bedside table and my wardrobe slightly open. But I’m trapped.
I’m stuck inside a dream and I’m yelling as hard as I can but no one can hear me. It’s like Locked-in syndrome, or being injected with a paralysing drug that means your brain is conscious, but your body is useless.
As the ‘thing’ descends upon my body, and I think it might suck the life out of me, I wake up.
And for a moment I wonder how I will ever let myself fall asleep again.
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When we are asleep, our eyes shut and our bodies still, physically in our beds but psychologically somewhere else, we are at our most powerless.
As we fall into rapid eye movement (REM) sleep, our brain releases chemicals that function to paralyse our muscles, preventing us from acting out our dreams.
But the sensation of coming into consciousness, while the body is still paralysed, is deeply distressing.
Suddenly, it can feel as though you’re awake in a nightmare, or, as clinical psychologist Michael Breus says, “it feels like you woke up dead… you’re trapped”.
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I've experienced that a couple of times. It was horrifying. Felt that I would never wake up. When I did wake, my heart was beating rapidly and my body felt tired. I never want to experience that again
"But when it happens, it brings with it a sense of sheer, undiluted, visceral terror, unlike any nightmare you've ever had."
No, that's just your experience of it. My own, as someone who experiences sleep paralysis regularly, is not half as hyperbolic or terrifying.