Thank you for sharing your stories. I am going through so much pain right now at having nightmares and sleepless nights. I am terribly lost entire day. I tried to read many stories just like yours hoping this ease some pain. I know this is not very easy at all. I know this will take several months. But you were right I have to be patient as well. But I really don't know how this will be over soon. I wanted this pain over. I prayed sincerely day and night. Believing He can speed up this pain. 
Anyways, I have read your entire article and I just wanted you to know that I have exactly the same affair, the same pain, the same situations. I feel I lost everything the beauty within in me. I know I truly deserve much more. I know I will do the same thing that you do. I hated that I cannot sleep I cried and cried, I just hated myself because I cannot help. I don't want him back I want to move on and be happy and be true. I know time will heal and I cannot wait that to happen.