I related to so much of what you have written! Thank you so much for sharing! I’m feeling the same as I have put on a lot of weight that I had lost (that old weight comes off then back on with more scenario). 

I am an equestrian and I’m letting you know on behalf of my three horses they are very offended by the horse dress. 

I have been using the almond shower oil. I use it just before I hop out of the shower and I don’t rinse it off. The moisture stays soaking into my skin and I don’t have to moisturise with lotion afterwards!