oh my gosh that's awful. The moment I began reading your story i freaked out and i thought please block these men. If i had contacted a client using their credit card i would've been fired. The first guy i wasn't curious enough about i would've just blocked. DO NOT see these men!  And protect yourself!

did you feel this way when you had an abortion?

Over $30,000 of their parents hard earned money and on the cusp of adulthood this is all those boys could produce. An absolute, unequivocal, disgrace.

I don't understand why you care this much it's made you into a neurotic. Seriously. Lying in bed awake at night going over interactions? Self reflection is important but anything out of balance to the extreme is unhealthy. Stop letting other people define you and your lovely self based on a simple internet created archetype that the stupid of society has run with. You're great, you're Karen, give yourself a voice and rise up and be proud!