I have too been subjected to a narcissistic mother and I have had many of the experiences mentioned. The hardest of all is to be totally invalidated and the incredible urge for a mother's love. Many sessions of personal therapy and letting go of the idea she was going to change and give me what I needed as child. I do not have children of my own, but I work as a clinical psychologist caring for others the way I needed to be cared for. My mother is an old women now and I am still contemplating walking away.....