I'm in tears. I'm a writer and your words touched me. I can't ever imagine what it's like for a mom who raised her son for 19 years to lose him, just like that. "I'm so sorry" just doesn't cut it. I have a 4-yr-old son. I can't imagine losing him. It's the worst kind of pain imaginable. I want to give you a big hug. I read your other story about connecting with a Medium. I hope it gave you some solace, although short-lived, perhaps. My heart goes out to you, Anne-Marie <3