Just read your experience. Really happy for you (big hug). Me? I was tidy. No one ever suspected it. I got away with it for decades. The habit got me over the hard times in life and I felt that I could go on forever like this. Errrr....sorry! That was the day that the G.P. said to me....your results are in....I'm not going to tell you to stop drinking....but I'm suggesting that you kerb your drinking....otherwise....your 39 now....don't bother making plans for your 50th birthday....because you're not going to make it!.... Then it happened....someone(thing) flicked the switch that turned on the Light Bulb....I stopped....No! it wasn't Luck that did it....it was grit, determination and desire to move on and live life. Believe me....I'm nothing or no one special....but if I can kick the habit....so can you. Be nice to yourself....you deserve it.