If it won’t be Marley it will be someone else, trust and believe. I hope that you will find it in your heart one day to treat yourself with grace and see yourself as someone who deserves so much better. It’s not the worst thing in the world to try to salvage your marriage but the biggest red flag I saw in your story is that you blame yourself. You might have contributed to the demise of your marriage but you don’t have control over his behavior. He lacked the tools that he needed to address and communicate the issues in your marriage, in a way that would have been therapeutic for both of you. No one is perfect and the infidelity is not the biggest issue for me-it’s the way he disrespected and manipulated you 

If it won’t be Marley it will be someone else, trust and believe. I hope that you will find it in your heart one day to treat yourself with grace and see yourself as someone who deserves so much better. It’s not the worst thing in the world to try to salvage your marriage but the biggest red flag I saw in your story is that you blame yourself. You might have contributed to the demise of your marriage but you don’t have control over his behavior. He lacked the tools that he needed to address and communicate the issues in your marriage, in a way that would have been therapeutic for both of you. No one is perfect and the infidelity is not the biggest issue for me-it’s the way he disrespected and manipulated  you. One day the dust will settle and you’ll see clearly