I had a situationship that was just on and off for 4.5 years. It started 10 years ago. I thought I moved on, because I was in a stable supportive relationship for 6 years. However, after my 6-yr lived-in bf and I broke up (we weren’t in love with each other). I got connected with my situationship man again. It felt different, because we’re older, but it’s the same pain of feeling and pattern - not knowing when I’ll see him again, feeling over the moon when we do see each other, but also very skeptical of all the sweet things he says to me. I honestly am in more pain about this situationship than my 6-yr relationship. The feelings of uncertainty, yearning for closeness and consistency is overwhelmingly saddening. I don’t know even know what to do anymore. Other than just sit through this misery & pain