I too no longer love , talk or deal with my mother . She often told me growing up I wasn't wanted and her golden child ( my older brother) should have been her only child.  I too couldn't do anything right by her . At 53 I now haven't seen either of them for 9 years my dad passed 18 yrs ago I feel  bad for my kids as she was in their lives then wasn't they are her only grandchildren.  It's her choice to be a better person , I however know that will never happen .