I never wanted kids. Growing up, I was the baby in the family, the idea of being a mother never really appealed to me.
In my early twenties, I was in a longterm relationship, and after a while, the questions began about whether we would ever get married and have kids. I rolled my eyes every single time. “That’s just not me,” I would explain. And it wasn’t.
Fast forward to my late twenties, I was travelling and partying all the time. That is, until I met someone. We had that mad, passionate sort of romance. We just couldn’t get enough of one another. So it wasn’t all that surprising that I got pregnant soon. And that’s when things took a dark turn. When I first saw the positive on the pregnancy test, I felt the weight of the world come crashing down on me. Being staunchly prochoice, I immediately considered an abortion.
My then boyfriend was supportive in whatever I chose though I could tell he was excited at the prospect of starting a family with me. And a small part of me felt that, too — the excitement to give in to what else life might have in store. We were so in love; nothing seemed too hard to handle. I decided to keep the pregnancy.
What mothers thought when they first saw their baby. Post continues after video…
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I'm so sorry for your loss. Please be kind to yourself x