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Poh Ling Yeow is looking back on the decisions she has made throughout her life. One of the worst ones relates to her late mother.
In November 2022, Yeow's mother Christina passed away.
At the time, Yeow was overseas on a European work trip. Her mum had been unwell, but Yeow made the choice to continue with her travel commitments as it seemed her mother had a good amount of time left.
Yeow took a risk. Sadly, her mother's health had worsened, and within the space of a week, she was gone.
"That's the thing that I do keep returning to. I just keep wondering why I chose to roll the dice," Yeow said on The Imperfects podcast with Hugh van Cuylenburg, Ryan Shelton and Josh van Cuylenburg.
"She was ill at the time, quite ill. But I just had this blind faith that she would be fine, because she was such a trooper."
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The MasterChef Australia judge said it was definitely one of the "hardest" things she's had to grapple with.
"The only way that's got me through it, is to own it. I was searching so hard, thinking, 'How am I going to get over this?' This was just the worst rolling of the dice ever. I rolled it wrong big time," she explained.
"How I've managed to get over it is by how I get over everything — it's to own my part in it. I did make the wrong decision. I did know she was sick, I am a risk taker. I'm just going to have to live with it."