By Madeleine Morris
“I don’t really like going to a coffee shop around this time of year,” she said.
“The smell … and the whole atmosphere, it just brings it really rushing back.”
While Bryant was still on the loose, she ran from her position of relative safety to administer first aid to his victims, first on tourist buses and then at the cafe.
Her selflessness won her a bravery award, but it also left a legacy that lives with her to this day.
“I became a bit of a ‘shut-in’. Didn’t really like to go out, didn’t really want to go anywhere,” Ms Beavis said.
“It’s made me suspicious and a little bit overcautious and also fearful.
“Sometimes when I’m trying to go to sleep I find images forming … there’s probably about 10 of the worst things that I saw that flash through my mind.”
‘You can be brave and scared at the same time’
Ms Beavis rose to national attention when she described what she had seen just two days after the event in a mesmerising interview on the 7.30 Report.
“Being a nurse I’ve seen dead people … but what I saw in there, nobody, perhaps a soldier would know what it was like. It was awful,” she said at the time.
“I saw a young man sitting there, just sitting there, with blood all over his hair and his face, holding his girlfriend, or wife, I don’t know’s [sic] hand.
“And she was very dead.
“And I just looked at him and I said, ‘I’m so sorry, I can’t help you’,” she said as she broke down in tears.
For years Ms Beavis did not recognise her act in risking herself to help people as an act of bravery, because she was so terrified.