In her brand new memoir Not That Kind Of Girl, Lena Dunham has revealed that she was raped in college.
“There were a few things in this book that I was terrified to put into the world,” said Girls actor/creator Lena, 28, in a recent interview with NPR Books.
“The chapter about date rape in the book was a really, really terrifying thing for me to put into the world,” Dunham said.
“It was a painful experience physically and emotionally, and one I spent a long time trying to reconcile. At the time that it happened, it wasn’t something that I was able to be honest about. I was able to share pieces, but I sort of used the lens of humour, which has always been my default mode, to try to talk around it.”
The Emmy Award-winning star didn’t even know how to define the incident at the time, and blamed herself. “I think I had just felt that something was very wrong,” she said of her feelings following the event. “I had felt that something had happened and I remember thinking ‘Can I ever be the same?’… I was at a party, drunk, waiting for attention — and somehow that felt like such a shameful starting-off point that I didn’t know how to reconcile what had come after. But I knew that it wasn’t right and I knew in some way that this experience had been forced on me.”
“When I shared it with my best friend and she used the term ‘you were raped’ at the time, I sort of laughed at her and thought like, you know, what an ambulance-chasing drama queen. I later felt this incredible gratitude for her for giving me that… gift of that kind of certainty that she had. I think that a lot of times when I felt at my lowest about it, those words in some way actually lifted me up because I felt that somebody was justifying the pain of my experience.”
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I'm so pleased Lena has revealed this so other women might feel they're able to as well. I have also experienced date rape just before I started college/uni and it was horrific and impacted my life incredibly. In my case I was able to stop him during it but I was so confused for a long time that it was my fault despite knowing I had expressly not consented and it was really wrong. I questioned all my actions and was so angry and confused that even though I'd made it clear to this guy it was completely wrong, he didn't seem to get it and actually approached me in my uni library a few months later like we were friendly and nothing had happened. I then reported it to the police because I felt sick he'd violated me in this way and acting like it was no big deal.
My mother was raped. It wasn't something she understood and she always thought it was her fault, because she liked the attention he gave to her during their date. It wasn't until I explained to her that she had said no to his advances afterwards and that he had still forced himself, that she came to the realisation that she wash to blame.