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Kylie Gillies is in 'The Shift'. It's the moment when you realise things have changed — your parents were giants, and now they're not. Your children were tiny, and now they're not.
Recently, Gillies found an old notebook from years ago when her two boys were little. When she opened the pages, she burst into tears.
"At that time, I would have to be getting up for work very early for The Morning Show. We were lucky enough to have a nanny that would come from around 7am to midday. We had a book that would sit on the kitchen bench and I would write in all the details to tell the nanny," Gillies tells Mamamia's MID podcast.
"I would write down all the details of the day into this book for the nanny. It made me cry reading over it again. It said stuff like, 'Gus has a sports carnival today. The green t-shirt I washed last night is hanging up in the laundry. He will need cut-up oranges. You'll find the oranges in the bottom of the crisper. Please cut the oranges into eighths."
"Here I was, this crazy woman hanging on so tightly. I could feel the tension in the pages. But at the time it felt like the be-all-and-end-all if this 10-year-old boy didn't wear his green t-shirt to his sports carnival."
Right now, Gillies' sons — who are 21 and 19 — are forging their own paths. She says it's been a major adjustment.