'What if my kids are gay? What do I tell them?': Jimmy Fallon's heartfelt Orlando monologue.

Before the "Murcia" comments start I want to say something... I am not American but I live here. 2 of my children are American. I support gun control, my friends Fernando and Felicia support gun control, my friend Patti and her husband and Laura and her husband and Kelley and Annie and Kathy and .... and ...and a hundred other people I know all want things to change but we feel helpless and hopeless. There is so much division and even in the face of Newtown and Orlando nothing happens despite our desire for change . We attend the pride parade every year with our kids. And this year I am genuinely afraid. I am an LGBTQI Ally. I speak up when I hear homophobic comments, I don't support businesses that have prejudicial hiring practices and I don't care who pees next to me, I have warred with my kids school about their attitudes to homophobic bullying. I want to support the LBGTQI community of Houston - especially in light of Orlando. They need me, my family and everyone else right now. But I am afraid. Afraid that if I take my family some fruitcake/ terrorist/ mixture of both will shoot us. For the first time I understand what people mean when they say "If they change our way of life they win". I don't live in fear over here usually. I do the same things with the same level of anxiety ( none) as I did when I lived in Australia. Until now. I want to stand, shoulder to shoulder with my gay friends. I want to shout 'fuck you assholes, not on my watch'. I have skin in this game, maybe for the first time in my life. So the question is do I have the courage of my convictions? God I hope so.