The following is an edited extract from On the Way to Wonderland by Alice Crawley, available here.
Martin didn’t know the full extent of my credit card debt when I came out of rehab. That was a whole new crucial conversation that we needed to have. I didn’t have the courage to tell him about it just yet.
I’d been in full-blown denial about how bad things really were with my money and I was terrified of losing Martin. He had stood by me through my journey in rehab, but being acutely aware that financial security was in his top tier of values, I was sure he would freak out if he knew that I was facing down the barrel of $185,000 in credit card debt.
I’d dealt with the immediate life-threatening conditions and now I had to deal with the creditors breathing down my neck. I knew I had to face the money and the music with Marty, but I needed to speak within someone else first, a dry run, to work up the courage to tell Mr Actuary the full story. The secret of my money shambles and shame was eating away at me from the inside. First, I needed to have tea with my neuroses.
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