As a kid, I couldn’t get enough of Star Wars.
I loved the storyline. I loved the characters. I loved the action figures. I desperately loved the blue Lightsaber my brother was given for his birthday, sneaking into his room whenever he left the house to practice my Sith-fighting moves.
But most of all, I loved that Star Wars was different. It wasn’t like the other movies the girls my age watched, and that suited me just fine.
I wasn’t interested in movies about boys or sleepovers. I knew, even at a young age, that there was more to me than being pretty, or dancing like a ballerina, or finding the perfect dress for prom. (I didn’t know what “prom” was, but boy did it feature in a lot of ’90s tween movies).
I didn’t want to be Barbie. I wanted to be Luke Skywalker.
I didn’t want a Dream House. I wanted a Lightsaber. (Maybe a pink one, though.)
As I grew older (and movies for young girls got better), I discovered strong female characters to surpass my old friend Luke. I found Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Xena the Warrior Princess, CIA Agent Sydney Bristow, and of course the incredible Veronica Mars. All of a sudden, it felt like being powerful, intelligent and capable wasn’t something “just for boys”. All of a sudden, Luke Skywalker became more of an old friend than a role model.
That doesn’t mean that I haven’t always had a soft spot for Star Wars. I’ve watched developments in the franchise with interest. But until this year, I’d lost the borderline obsession of my 10-year-old self.