This post deals with pregnancy loss and might be triggering for some readers.
Actress Ada Nicodemou has opened up about the loss of her second son, Harrison, after he was sadly delivered stillborn in 2014.
The Home and Away actress, who was then married to Chrys Xipolitas, was in her eighth month of pregnancy when she lost her child.
Speaking to Stellar Magazine, Nicodemou reflected on the difficult time, admitting “the past five years really tested my positive personality”.
“Life will never be the same again; there will obviously be a hole in your heart,” Nicodemou tells the publication.
“We will always remember that child and what could have been.”
The actress explains that some of the most difficult conversations she has are centred around the tragic loss.
"A lot of people come up and say sorry about Harrison, but I found that really difficult because I don’t want to break down in front of them," Nicodemou says.
"I’ve had counselling, and I’ve just gone back again. It’s going to be an ongoing thing, because I want to get in a better place where I don’t freeze up when he’s mentioned."
Conversations with her seven-year-old son Johnas are particularly hard, she explains.
"I just get so choked up. I think it’s nice that he’s keeping his little brother’s memory alive, but now I say, 'It actually hurts Mummy when you keep going on about it.'"
But despite the heartbreak, Nicodemou says that she "had to be strong" for her son Johnas, as she adds, "I've had to be a strong woman".