Baby brain and sleep deprivation had got the better of me.
Walking saved my sanity in the early days of motherhood. My shuffling feet must have worn a path through my local park as I went up and down, up and down, once in the morning, once in the afternoon, my outing serving a double purpose – to lull my girl to sleep, and to get me out of the house.
Four walls and a squawky baby are enough to make anyone tetchy, but get outside in the light and air and suddenly everything seems manageable. New mums know this. That’s why they seem to invade every public space you visit on any given weekday. You know, either side of nap time.
But on one of those walks on one of those early days, a well-meaning woman stopped me to peer under the pram hood and admire my sleeping little bundle.
“Aw, how gorgeous,” she said (smart woman), and clocking the tasteful flowers on her blanket. “What’s her name?”
And I opened my mouth and said, “—“.
I had forgotten my own daughter’s name.
That’s how seriously baby-brain, sleep deprived and down-right addled I was.
I also would frequently forget my house keys when I left the house, which made for some deeply awkward moments, being trapped outside with a cranky baby who just wanted to be inside, snuggling. I forgot how long it had been since I last breastfed, I forgot how to reverse park, I forgot dinner… the list goes on.
Just as an FYI, you should know that this post is sponsored by NSW Health. But all opinions expressed by the author are 100 per cent authentic and written in their own words.
Being a new parent can be overwhelming. Especially at the beginning. It can sometimes feel like a learning curve that you might fly right off. You’re immersed in a world of unfamiliar information, things you didn’t even know you needed to know, and worries you never had before.
That’s why, when you talk to new parents about what’s going on in their lives, they often look blank. Their minds are overflowing with the minutiae of caring for a new person, a little person who seems to need so much stuff. A little person whose needs are so simple – food, warmth, love – but can seem so desperately mysterious at the same time.